It’s natural for us to fear the unknowns…
many time, we like to avoid the conflict with unknown as much as possible…
many time, we simply ignore it… so who are you?

I tend to ignore myself many time…
I tend to call myself names that others would get offended…
i’m an idiot..      cynical criticism for my small mistakes,
what the hell is wrong with me..       hateful words for my ill behaviors…

Never realizing the impact on the selfesteem,
Never considering fanning of bomb that keeps destroys what others see a beauty.
Never counted a fact that it starts to affect those surrounds me.

to fulfill my desires, i’m tied up with senseless details…
Battery labels facing the right way, quarters stacking heads-up,
little bit of self gratitude is granted through simple processes…
hoping that it will delay the putrid toward myself.

no more self-criticisms.
no more hateful words to my self-esteem.
no more whining about my retarded  beautiful mind
and re-structure my confidence…
Let’s get bit selfish for myself…
I deserve to be cared.. by me

Starting Today…

Sometimes, new beginning isn’t the best solution.
Sometimes, it’s best to just simply go back ..
    and start correcting things back to what it suppose to be.
that causes us to be bit more stronger, bit more humble.
We try so hard to get what we call a “fresh start”
but when it comes down to it, don’t we have only ONE LIFE?

i get to say this 2 times every year about day light savings…

“whoever thought of day light savings by changing the time so we gain one more extra hour of sleep…  BRILLIANT!

whoever decided that we should put it back….  what a jerk….”