two pictures were taken about 2 years ago… John and SeaGull….
totally forgot about it until couple weeks ago, and finally put them together~
sorry again…john… really… i am… 
Month: March 2005
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i guess you can put it this way… life is like writing an essay… yea, who likes writing essays…
many times you get overwhelmed by thoughts after thoughts that you don’t know where to start…
sometimes, you need to take a break from that essay, and put it in your
drawer, and let it sit in there until you are ready to write
again… sometimes, you just need to focus on introduction only,
and not worry about body or conclusion, or how many pages to
go…
sometimes, you need to take break from life too, fold up the past
memories and put them in special place, and when you are ready to face
them again, you just pull them back out… sometimes it’s
just easier to tackle one thing at a time, whatever comes first….in essay, you get drafts and drafts to make it perfect at the
end….but life, you are stuck with one draft… many times you
make mistakes and feels like you can never get back again…but because
you only have one chance to live your life, what you make out of it and
fill in the blank pages makes you who you are…you are unique in your own way, and your life is as important as how you feel about other people’s lives…
so how about you pull out those frowns off your face, and start
writing…. you have a lot of blank pages to fill out about your life…yes i’m talking to you…
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“You’ll never be that person you want to be……………”
everyone has some type of dreams… becoming the world leader,
becoming a lawyer, becoming rockstar, or just someone popular among
people…etc.etc.
I always thought that i can be THAT person if i tried hard enough. if i
wanted it, i would get it with having passion to obtain that goal in
your life, and that’s what i thought the happiness would rise…
it’s never the case for me…
dissatisfaction rises from inability to achieve personal goals and
dreams… things never go the way you planed, and a lot of times,
it’s not even near…. i guess i just have to find the happiness
with whatever i got so far…
people always say “dream big”, especially parents… it’s the right
thing to say, but sometimes, realizing that those big dreams are never
to come true just makes you feel …… what’s the word i’m
looking for…..”useless”?
i’ll know i’ll never ever be “that popular guy” or “that nice guy” or…. even “that smart kid”
so i’m gona accept the fact that i’m just regular kid, not much for big
dreams, and not even all that friendly…. most likely just pain
in the ass kid……
yea… i know, i’m an asshole… i have problems… i’m not
that smart, i’m not that wise… i’m not that good at playing
instruments, or learning new things… i’m pretty dam ugly, and i
talk too much… yea… i know… so i’m gona have to think twice about
my “acceptable” goal that i can persuit, and try for that…anyone have any idea what i’m talking about? told you i’m retarded…
