August 23, 2004

  • how did i get here... omg just when you thought everything was going
    the original track, you fall in fear...  nothing makes sense that
    it's never so clear....  one moment you turn to chapter of your
    life which one the awsome thing to remember... but you flip a page to
    see that there's nothing more than clear white page that says.."the end"

    i ran into a word i told few of my friends to check up on..
    "why?"  why does it do that... why did he do that...  why
    can't you do that.....    and i realize...  it's
    actually dangerous word that leads you to discover the
    unnecessaries...   a "GREAT MAN" said...  'charles, you
    seems to life up the stones to see what's underneath it...  and
    sometimes you do find your answers but many times you seems to find
    things that makes it worse...   some stones were never ment
    to be moved...."  (or something on that line)

    curiosity kills me....  i need to have assurance....  i need
    to have secure mind....  whatever i have right now...  i hate
    every bit of it..  want to tear it up, rip it up, and burn it till
    there's nothing left....  back to the drawing board..