so yesterday, i spend all day trying to fix/upgrade my computer…
THings i did:::
repaint my entire computer…
install 200GB hard drive…
redo the entire cabling…
and dust off all the fans….
i now have A, C, D, E, F, G, H, I drives….
what’s wrong with my computer… TOO MUCH STUFF?? or TOO CRAZY USER…
Month: August 2004
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how did i get here… omg just when you thought everything was going
the original track, you fall in fear… nothing makes sense that
it’s never so clear…. one moment you turn to chapter of your
life which one the awsome thing to remember… but you flip a page to
see that there’s nothing more than clear white page that says..”the end”i ran into a word i told few of my friends to check up on..
“why?” why does it do that… why did he do that… why
can’t you do that….. and i realize… it’s
actually dangerous word that leads you to discover the
unnecessaries… a “GREAT MAN” said… ‘charles, you
seems to life up the stones to see what’s underneath it… and
sometimes you do find your answers but many times you seems to find
things that makes it worse… some stones were never ment
to be moved….” (or something on that line)curiosity kills me…. i need to have assurance…. i need
to have secure mind…. whatever i have right now… i hate
every bit of it.. want to tear it up, rip it up, and burn it till
there’s nothing left…. back to the drawing board.. -
AND THIS JUST IN!… BEARS LOVE BEER
http://www.cnn.com/2004/US/West/08/18/bear.beer.reut/index.html
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So they said….
08-13-2004 – JAMA
So we’re waiting for a flight out of Los Angeles that will take us through the night to North Carolina…another ‘red-eye’ flight to mess up our bio-rythms… This weekend was such a great time! we played for five thousand crazy Koreans at the Anaheim convention center… what an amazing group of people… we were blessed.
haha CRAZY KOREANS WE ARE! that’s RIGHT! -
OK… Richard’s Birthday Party went FUN FUN FUN~~~!!!
Restaurant MOOSES… pretty good food… but you gata say.. IT’s A RIP OFF~!!
$30 dinner gave me freaking 3 scalops!!!! that doesn’t include tax, gratuity, wine, etc etc..
and BELLAGIO changed their name to ESSEX?? looks better than before but.. still..
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ABOUT 25 STITCHES ON YOUR FACE… imagine… it happenes to someone who gets into accidents… it happenes to someone who get assulted with deadly weapon… it has happened…
i don’t know how this all began… 2004 sucks and it scares me to know that i’m only half way done… no doubt, this year will be most painful, most remembered, most… hated year.. (i talk like 2004 is already gone… but you see? i want it to end…) where to start… check fraud, roomates, appartments, break-ups, unstable emotions, songs, cries… (take a breath) financial problems, family problems, friends, lack of trust, lack of life, death, serious injuries, anger managements, arguments, and many more….
i pretty must lost everything i wanted… a good stable family… friends up in berkeley… money…. my heart… my soul… family getting in arguments, friends moving back to LA for their own problems/jobs/etc., in heavy credit card debt.. finding out my girl left me for someone else…
it may seem like it’s nothing big to think about… but i guess i’m just too naive… i just want things to be perfect for me… and inability to obtain these goals makes me upset, aggitated, and gloomy… it’s only august… 3rd day of august… and so much happened already… John Lee getting hurt, Eugene taking break from school… i don’t even know what my priorities are anymore… taking care of friends?.. family?.. or myself?… as much as i love my family… i want to put them first, but my surroundings are friends.. and they are need of every help i can give… (or at least i want to give).. financial situation on me doesn’t help ANY of them… so do i just keep working to get money? i don’t make $100,000 a month… i’m just another poor college kid… how can i help? i can i be in your assistance? how can i be who you want me to be? who am i? fed up, tired, i finally cut my hair
lately, i figured out who i want to be… the qualities i want to have, about relationship to my nuclear family (if i get married) and extended family, friends and society… i want to have a stone to sink into the pond and let it settle down for years and years to come… not moved, hindered…. that stone, with labels or rightous morals, ethics, and devotion,…
omg.. what the hell am i talking about…. stupid charles. i hate you too
OH YEA!! and for a person who think i’m mad at and said “i think charles is mad at me” this messege is for you: i only drove to see you and visit you and spend time with you! if you think i’m annoying and say “i had to put up with this guy for 3 days” then i don’t want to bother you any more… i’m not mad at you… just don’t wannt bother you no mo~ get it? so PEACE!
