Fucking Shit
not in the mood.. don’t fuck with me.. i’ll FUCK you back.. with CAPITAL LETTERS
Month: July 2004
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i’m writing this from Miju’s appartment and this is her… (she’s CRAZY!)
So in LA…. met few people i haven’t seem for a …quite a while now… Jeff from church, called up Kevin Han, etc etc… people haven’t seen for like even 6 years… felt weird at the moment… a stream of thought went across my head.. “i wonder in their mind i changed…” i don’t think i changed whole a lot but i bet you $5 that they were thinking of the same thing… LA has been a place where i can go to my family, and relax and hang out with good ole’ friends… just like everyone else’s “HOME TOWN” undeniable… things change.. even your favorite hair style will change sooner or later… my home torrance changes as well…
it’s not a place i can go for good ole’ family dinner and relax anymore… there are things to do, and there are tasks i need to do… more homework. my parents are now working virtually full time and a half, i don’t remember the last time we actually sat on one table and had dinner at home… we usually end up eating at different hours or not at all.. yea, sometimes i end up skipping dinner but i don’t tell my mom.. cuz then she’ll have to cook up something… i know she’s too tired for that… i can’t “enjoy” home anymore… here’s Miju sitting next to me looking for her new place cuz her contract expires and she’ll be homeless i guess… and here’s me.. can’t even call my perminent address home sweet home.. wake up in the morning, take shower… no one home… my parents are gone to work already.. eat something fast, light and head over to help my parents at work… when you are working there, time goes rather fast… so must to do… so must to take care of… by 7 or 8 pm, i get cranky, easily upsetted… simple reason… i’m HUNGRY!!! once again, i just call up my friend to have dinner with cuz i know my parents got not much time to take care of me… it’s not home… it’s just another house i live with, well my parents being “roomates”.
there’s no friends left in Torrance anymore…. all moved out to do their work/school whatever reasons they have… i guess that’s why i ended up coming to Miju’s place at late hour.. just to get out… just to get out of the place i used to call home…
i guess that’s the differences of Torrance and Berkeley now… not much… -
now it fees like things are moving too fast. too fast that once you stop what you were doing and look back, you just wanna gasp and say “oh crap! already?” that the heck is going on… you can complain that it is just not fair… it is just too fast, but it’s not gona change a thing. what happened already gone by and you have new window to walk through without any hesitation cuz soon, present will be obsolete and you’ll be behind again… or may be not
my uncle passed away today morning…. hearing from my dad was an hear break, no doubt. my uncle was always sorta ‘no mood affected’ typical korean…. yea but that was hilarious for me.. i loved him for who he was… sorta got that teddy bear belly with looks a lot like previous korean president.. with his monotonous voice… making jokes… even his jokes were serious… he was a character alright… such a respectable and loveable person… but i guess everyone has their own path to walk on… God must have had another reason to call him so early… without must notice for others.. but he must have secretly told him that he had better duties…. he’ll look over us… he’ll take care of his family from where he is now.. i know he’s staying in good place… comfortable… no more pain…. he has left me nothing more than a smile… smile of love… smile of hope… smile of sadness… everything emotions and emoticon expressions we can think of… he has changed it into one simple expression… smile..
having difficulties? having problems? sad? lonely? smile, ladies and gentlemen…. don’t frown cuz it’s not gona help… smile.. smile.. smile..
uncle, i know you are in good place… rest up in peace, and enjoy rest of your eternal vacation..
this one’s for you -
it’s bad…. but it’s true…
my NUMBER ONE REASON to find a girl became
“I NEED A HAIR CUT!”
sad isn’t it?
Random Article: Achieving 1,194 Miles Per Gallon, Rose-Hulman’s Supermileage Car Places Third in Society of Automotive Engineers’ Fuel Economy Competition
1,194 MILES? PER GALLON???? WTF!! is that just too crazy? i mean i know the horsepower on that must be shitty but… still! get to freaking NY for like $10!!!
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Sorta weird…. but Michelle called yesterday morning… i don’t know how to feel about this… at last i thought i was on my way to being– ME again… i can’t quite figure out if it’s a chain that she want to hold on to… or thin line that i want to hang on to… i thought everything was gona go ok… i thought everything was gona be fine… i don’t know where i stand anymore.. ONCE AGAIN..
my mind is shaking again.. but i know it shouldn’t and i know i shouldn’t let it…. what if i want it to be shaken… AH!!! GIRLS ARE EVIL!!! GUYS ARE DUMB!!!
someone tell me what to do for this POOR DUDE IN THE MIDDLE! -
Happy Birthday EUGE~
7-11 was Eugene’s 23rd birthday… we ended up eating out at Everette and Jones BBQ~
Most
unexpected person showed up.. KYONG Park~ he drove up to be with
us for his birthday~ how “ROMANTIC” hahaha~
i know we didn’t get to do stuff that’s “CRAZY” but we had
fun… eat out… drink beer like how eugene’s drinking it.. that
was only a CUP of beer… not a pitcher… “I MEAN IT WAS A
PITCHER!”
he had better smile when he opened his new Nintendo Wavebird controller…HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANG!~
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so back to where i left off… i do feel better these days… i do have hopes… and i know for fact that hope is a good thing. right? but lately -once again- things come up that is absolutely retardedly dumb. stupid drama shiznit that bothers all of us…
well… kyung moved out and we have now GIRL LIVING IN OUR PLACE~ felt so empty after kyung moved out… we created sorta random and exciting environment to live.. but now that he’s gone… it’s just not the same any more~ i hope kyung gets that google job! good luck with everything mang! Jennifer Won is living in kyung’s room for a month and dude.. she’s pretty funny~ unlike other “STUPID” koreans… she actually likes to get involved into things… she makes me feel comfortable~ at first, i thought it would be awkward having a girl as a roomie… i mean think about it.. i am not that clean of a guy.. i get messy i get dirty… and like someone being saying whole time.– CHARLES HAS DISTINK SMELL, I CAN SMELL IT ON HIS BLANKETS!! – ok… i SMELL! SHOOT!! don’t YOU!? anyway, i thought i had to be all NEATTY and CLEAN and etc etc.. but it’s coo! she don’t mind the ÁöÀúºÐÇì stuff i guess~ or used to it~
ALL-RIGHT~
i should start working on my song again…
