Here is another day… another day that will defeat me… another
day to be scared… another day which will never let me be..ME.
Constant
fear… constant dark clouds.. how did i get into this position… how
did i get here, living ordinary life in fear.. how every day of this
gloomy history repeats itself, but it’s never so clear…
Everyday
of being hated… bombarded with words of hate.. pain, must i deal
with? couldn’t this just be a moment that flashs by in a heart beat?
it’s bitter, blue, dejected, despairing, bereaved, dismal, distressed,
down, doleful, hurting, in grief, glum, forlorn, downcast, pensive,
morbid… and same time, bewildered, puzzled, disconcert, shame, messed
up…yet these are only words that partially describes how i need and
must express myself… for that.. i’m sorry for just being what i am,
who i am….
it’s gona be alright… but never that dream is
fulfilled… never will i see the light again.. never will i enjoy
being who i am… ever?
fighting, crying, shouting, smiling,
forgetting… i’ve tried all that would keep me away from the filth..
this stain that has affected me so much even more… if i can, i want
to burn it all down… every single thing i see…
everyone
has their moment to be defeated… many of them will face the fire and
some will hide… i can’t hide.. i can’t fight… what will i be
doing… absolutely nothing… courage? integrity? i have none of…
where will i be standing… for how long..
I”M SUCH A MORON!!! i banged my head on a printer… don’t ask how….
and i have to walk around like….
can Today be any worse?
DIE CHARLES DIE!!!
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